The Answer

I search for  the answer to the blank pages before me.  Fingers long to move. Words fail.  I hear others tell me writers face resistance. Advice in abundance. Words fail still. Until today.

It’s the same problem I have when I criticize others for things I think they should know, or do, or be.  I have this problem when I get frustrated that things aren’t going my way.  I have this problem when I think I have all the answers.  It rears its ugly head.

The fear, the frustration, the resistance, it all comes down to pride. My voice drowns out His.

My voice must be silenced to find His.

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Dear Benjamin,
There are so many things that I want to tell you that I hardly know where to begin.  But, as I was reading my Bible today I think the Lord gave me direction.

“I will cause Your name to be remembered in all generations…” Psalm 45:17

Last week in our time of worship we were talking about Proverbs 18:10, “The name of the LORD is a strong tower; the righteous run into it and are safe.”

It seems as the world is going crazy right now, Ben.  There are earthquakes, tsunamis, wars and more wars,  poverty and suffering, people are being deceived.  To be honest, it can be unnerving.  But, when we remember the name of the LORD we find rest.

Names, in the Bible, are associated with a person’s character.  God has many, many names because He is so big and there are so many aspects to His character.  There are times when God reveals Himself in the Bible in different ways.  To Hagar, He was the God Who Sees.  To Abraham, God Almighty.  King David called God many different names including, My Glory and the One Who Lifts My Head.

There is one place in the Bible where God names Himself.  Exodus chapter 3 tells the story of God appearing to Moses in the burning bush.  Moses turns aside to see what it is that is going on.  God tells Moses that he is chosen to go and free the children of Israel from their bondage in Egypt.  Moses questions God’s plan several times and each time God gives Moses the assurance that God will be with Him and has everything under control.

Now Moses was raised in Pharaoh’s household.  He knows the obstacles he will encounter.  In verse 13 he raises this question, ” ‘Behold, I am going to the sons of Israel, and I will say to them, ‘The God of your fathers has sent me to you.’ Now they may say to me, ‘What is His name?’ What shall I say to them?'”

“God said to Moses, “I AM WHO I AM”; and He said, “Thus you shall say to the sons of Israel, ‘I AM has sent me to you.'” God, furthermore, said to Moses, “Thus you shall say to the sons of Israel, ‘The LORD, the God of your fathers, the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob, has sent me to you ‘ This is My name forever, and this is My memorial-name to all generations.” (Exodus 3:14-15)

“I Am WHO I AM”,  in the Hebrew is YHVH, the unutterable name of God.  Ehyeh-Asher-Ehyeh, “I will be known by what I do.”  Moses and the Israelites had to keep their eyes open and see what God would do.  He was faithful to rescue them.

The events of Egypt had been spoken of hundreds of years before.  The things we see happening today were also spoken of thousands of years ago by Jesus who was given a Name above every name.  He calmed the storm and said, “Peace.  Be Still.”  He can calm the storm that rages in our hearts as well.   All He is He is to me.  I pray that one day He will be the same to you, Ben.

For His Name’s Sake,


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Dear Benjamin,
Just three short months ago I became a grandmother for the first time.  Wasn’t it just yesterday I was bringing my firstborn, your mother home from the hospital?  I have so many things I want you to know. I want to tell you of my memories of your mother growing up.  I want to tell you how the world has changed.  Through the good times and the hard times God has been faithful.

Know, Ben, that you are loved.  God has given us a gift, your mom and dad, Grandpa and me.  I can’t wait to see the smile on Grandpa’s face when he meets you in person for the first time.  It brings him such joy to see each new picture of you.  Just a couple more weeks.  I’m already imagining what he will do.  When your mom was a baby, PaPa White used to carry her around his house and farm showing her whatever there was to look at.  I just know that is what your Grandpa will do.  PaPa always liked to have us around.  Grandpa is like that, too.

PaPa and Grandpa are like God in that respect.  God likes to have His people around, too.  God’s desire has always been to dwell with His people.  It still is.   God wants us to know Him, Ben, and knowing Him is the most incredible gift in the world.


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Where I have learned the Most about Love

Welcome to my kitchen.   Things have changed a bit since this picture was taken in 2006. But, there has been one steady constant in my life.  On this Valentine’s Day I want to bless the LORD for the gift of the man you see sitting at the head of my kitchen table.  My Mr. Steady Man.

This is the man who has taught me most about Biblical love.   My husband is a man of hospitality and giving, welcoming others into our home, many times more than I would like to.  Even when he has to work long hours, he will forgo his own need for sleep if someone else has a need.

A lover of God and the Word, Buck loves to hear what other’s have been learning in Scripture and will often ask what the person he meets has been reading in the Word.  He enjoys spurring others on to feast at the table of the LORD and not to settle for the crumbs of this world.  He challenges the teens that he coaches in Bible quizzing to be known as young people who spend time in the study of Scripture and not as those who know the latest movie stars or rock stars.

A man of humility, my beloved recently shared his heart as he led at our homechurch.  We were discussing how the Israelites were sidetracked from following after God in the Book of Judges.  Buck gave an example from his own life of a temptation he faced at work.  There had been a mistake made on his paycheck in that he was overpaid a substantial amount of money.  Only he and God would have known had he kept it secret.  But, this sin would have had ramifications on his son and his grandson.  He did the right thing and reported the error.  I am grateful to be married to a man of integrity.

Over and over again my husband demonstrates Biblical love to me in covenant faithfulness.  He shields himself from the temptations of the world so that he is only for me.  He is committed to me and has stated many, many times that he will never leave me nor forsake me.  He follows this up with his actions.  He faithfully lays down his life to provide for, protect, and preserve our relationship, our home and the generations yet to come.

My husband is patient with me, knowing that God will work His purpose in me.  Buck and I both desire God’s best, not necessarily our own way.  We have grown in this together.  God has worked.

Today as I continue my list of gifts, my personal example of the heart of God is there.

“I am my Beloved’s and my Beloved is Mine.” Song of Solomon 6:3

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Heart heavy.  Words cannot go public, but prayer can.

“I have set the LORD continually before me;
Because He is at my right hand,I will not be shaken.” Psalm 16:8

For His name’s Sake.

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Conviction this morning from the Book of Judges regarding idolatry in my life.  That hideous idol called “Self.”    Misplaced affections make wastelands of hearts.

To participate in Scripture and a Snapshot go toKatie Lloyd’s site. She has some guidelines to help you so that other’s can find their way to your site.

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Fingerprint Friday

There is a song by Steven Curtis Chapman that says:
I can see the fingerprints of God
When I look at you
I can see the fingerprints of God
And I know its true
You’re a masterpiece
That all creation quietly applauds
And you’re covered with the fingerprints of God






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